Moody Blues
Today the South Wind blows outside my window. It's raining, which is no big deal. After all this is Puget Sound. The water flowing through the channel below our house looks like a river instead of salt water. The wind is constant and all the waves move more like the current of a river all running in one direction. It is dreary out. Dark clouds, rain, wind, moody ocean dominate the day. I am dreary on the inside as well. Life has sent me too many storms this week and I am beyond repair at the moment. I am like a spent flower. Wilted over beyond a drink of water. The week was long, exhausting, emotional, thought provoking, and I am empty. I am not sure how to refill the tank. I tried napping and sleep evaded me. I tried shopping but it felt small and empty. I tried eating but the calories just kept looming over me like a shark attack. None of it was fun. In fact I long for night time and sleep. Sometimes you need to just wash the day away and start again.
I think again of the water below my house. It just keeps moving along. I guess this is also a lot like life. It just keeps moving along. We may try and be a log on the beach but in spite of our desire to detach the high tide comes and the current moves us along. By tomorrow my mood will change. A shower will wash me clean. Fresh clothes hopefully will reawaken my sense of readiness. A nutritious meal will elevate my mood. And I will just keep moving along. I know in my heart I want to keep moving along.
